Honour your mother. (Mystique & Kurt)

[Gummy]

Kurt hadn't been long at the monastery, he had found his old robes and got into the quiet life. He always found the pace refreshing despite the early mornings. His mind was still troubled by the things he had done and that needed some more reconsiling. When he got to confession time he sat there in silence just praying before sighing and leaving the booth. How could he say what was on his mind. When he didn't know what to take away from it.

Today he found himself in the peace garden thumbing through the pages in his bible while sat under an arbor with clamatus climbing the side. They weren't out in bloom but that didn't bother him. Just to have shelter from the frosty air was enough to keep him sat there for a little longer. He didn't know what he was looking for until the page fell open on

Matthew 19:19 - honor your father and mother,’ and ‘love your neighbor as yourself.’ ”

The pages turned again.

Exodus 20:12 - “Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you.

and again

Mark 7:10 - For Moses said, ‘Honor your father and mother,’ and, ‘Anyone who curses their father or mother is to be put to death.’

He threw his bible down on the floor his voice scarce a whisper.

"How can I when they are who they are?"

He closed his eyes as tears fell down his cheek.

[heroesdreamer]

It had taken Mystique quite some time, but she had found her son and was nervous to talk to him. They hadn't had the best relationship, but she always tried to look out for him and she wanted to talk with him tonight, so she morphed into one of the people she'd seen wandering around and walked casually into the garden. approaching the young man. "May I sit here?" he asked, only changing into her true form once she was sure they were alone.

"Hello Kurt" she started, a small smile flitting across her face before seeing the Bible laying on the ground then the tears in her son's eyes. "Are you okay?" Are they mistreating you here?" she asked, getting a bit angry but also not fully understanding why Kurt was here. "I know I haven't been the best mother but I do care about you and if you're hurt or need help, just tell me, okay?" she asked quietly, worried about her son who so reminded her of Destiny.

[Gummy]

Kurt moved to allow the other person to sit and felt the person shift next to him. He didn't need to look to know who it was and he didn't know how to feel. She was a wild card in his life, distant but reoccuring. The time he had spent with her rectently had been fun in one way but in another it was just his father manipulating him and breaking him down further. His voice spoke quietly and full of turmoil when he was able to figure out his words.

"Hello, Raven....No, I'm not ok. I am being treated fine, with open arms here."

He paused before turning to her.

"That is what everyone wants me to do but I don't know where to start. Every time I try and figure a bit out I feel like I am falling all over again."

He sighed and said one word.

"Vater."

(translation father)

The normal hopeful Kurt was far from where he should be and he hoped that she would understand which father he was on about. Yes, his physical injuries were all healed and his mental ones were better but he was still lost.

[heroesdreamer]

Raven was even more worried when Kurt said he was not fine, though she breathed a sigh of relief when he said they treated him well here. "That's good, I do worry about you" she said softly, bending down and picking up the Bible. One glance at the pages told her everything but then Kurt mentioned his father. Sighing, she said "I need to tell you something about how you were conceived, he is not your father. I took on his DNA and shifted into his form so I could be the father, but I didn't think about how you turned out physically."

Taking a quick glance around to make sure they were still alone, she continued. "For years, even decades, I loved this mutant woman called Irene Adler, she is your mother and I am your father. I don't know where she is right now or if she's still alive but I do still look for her." Swallowing hard, she then said "Also, I am so sorry we left you behind! The people where we lived thought we were demons and were coming after us, we hid you and had every intention of coming back but by the time we did, you had been found. I owe your life to your adopted mom!"

Tears pricked her eyes as she remembered how helpless she felt and she wiped her eyes before shaking it off. "I don't blame you if you are mad at me but I hope you will forgive me or at least let me try to make it up to you." she said, unsure about where to go from here.

[Gummy]

What she said... he listened quietly to. His vision was spinning again. Things feeling wrong. What was wrong? Kurt stayed still but put his head into his hands. When she fell quiet he knew he should forgive her but that wasn't what he had been told in the past.

"Nein! Nein! That not what happened! You threw me over a waterfall! Azazel caught me and rescued me from you. You are my mother! He is my father!"

He didn't take the bible from her he just stood up wavering on the spot. He wanted to bamf but didn't have the energy. He turned to look at her with tears in his eyes. He raised a hand to his head as if it was hurting.

"You... he..."

He was breathing too fast and his head was spinning even more. The exhaustion he was healing from hitting him hard. He looked in pain as he crumpled to his knees holding his head and closing his eyes trying to shake the exhaustion, dizziness and mental strain. He placed a shaking hand onto Raven's knee.

"I don't know the truth. How? I saw... I know... I thought that.... Nein!"

His shoulders shuddered as his body trembled. He had not long slept for several days trying to fight the contamination in his mind. He didn't know what was real and what was a dream. He looked up the Raven.

"I don't know... who I am."

He meant that in several different ways. He was struggling with his faith, memories and knowing what he had and hadn't done.

[heroesdreamer]

Raven was so worried when Kurt did not take the news well, this was why she hadn't told him before but maybe she should have? Fighting tears herself, yet worried that someone would come to see what was wrong, she reached down to Kurt. It was then that he stood up, denying what happened but apparently not doing well, especially when he fell to his knees. "Whoa!" she exclaimed, gently touching him on his shoulder. "Do you need me to get someone, a doctor?" she asked, feeling horribly guilty for not telling him the truth sooner.

He finally reached up to her and she took his hand, wanting nothing more than to take him away from here and bring him home, but he had to want to. In the meantime, she said "I'm sorry I didn't tell you the truth before, but I've always been watching you and you seemed so happy!" Shaking her head, she said "I know it's going to take a while to accept the truth, but is there anything I can do in the meantime?" Pausing just a moment, she also offered "If you want, you can come home with me and we can talk more, but it's up to you. I just worry about you, are you sure these guys can take care of you?"

[Gummy]

Kurt couldn't say anything for a little as he looked up to her. When he did speak his voice struggled to form words.

"Happy!? ... Home?!"

He let out a little laugh at the idea of both of these. The hand helped to steady his spinning head.

"You have come here to tell me this? Do you know what my dear vater has done to me? Did you think that maybe I'm here to heal?"

He closed his eyes tightly shut allowing the unshed tears to finish falling. He knew he needed to forgive her as he knew he needed to forgive him. He pictured the glowing light inside him and tried to make it grow bigger.

"No, I am not sure if the people here are the best for this. I don't think anywhere can be but I do know this place is a second start."

He opened his eyes and stood up.

"How can I trust either of you to tell me the truth?"

He sat on the bench and looked at her. All the while he didn't let go of her hand.

"Do you speak the truth or did you throw me off the top of the waterfall? Why did you not tell me or come for me?"

[John Kilroy]

"Supposedly...she forgot." Azazel spat as his voice echoed. his voice dripped with contempt for the Father of the child. He began to curse her in French. He appeared out of a wall of red mist as the man stopped time around them. everyone and everything was frozen save Azazel, Raven, and Kurt.


"Je te maudis! Espèce de petite Dalila menteuse! Espèce de petite vipère! Tu es une petite pute trompeuse et trompeuse! Je te maudis! Je te maudis! Je te maudis!"

He couldn't help but sneer as he began to pace. "Go ahead and explain to him, how you seemingly forgot...how his mother allowed herself to magically forget. Oh wait...I forgot. You broke our contract and decided to play a game of reverse the sexes. You said it yourself, you're the Father, Which I guess makes me the mother...Well, I suppose I should look the part properly and take the form I should have from the start."


With a snap of his fingers his form began to change his face took on much more feminine features, and his hair grew into a long thick black mane that went down to the thighs. His hips flared out as his body grew thicker as it took on a feminine shape more attributed to a succubus. His male parts turned into female parts. He was now a she.  

"There, at least I can say I'm doing my part to clear the air of this...farce." his...her voice now sounded like a young seductive Fem Fatale. looked to Mystique.

"Please Raven, if you're going to claim a masculine title like father. At least have the decency to look the part. Perhaps take on the form you did the night you spread your seed into your mistress, hmm? Haven't you already confused him enough Must he now be confused on the differences between Adam and Eve?" Azazel was feeling particularly vindictive.  

Azazel looked to her son. "I'm so sorry Kurt, Unfortunately, I'm finding all of this out the same time you are...had I known the truth from the beginning I would have handled things much MUCH differently. Starting with having introduced myself as your mother in THIS form."

Azazel sat on the Bench that her son sat on, sitting next to him. She looked at Raven with a look that could kill .Here was where the heart of her true grievances lay. 

"You...you were supposed to carry him and raise him with your husband...I was to be the seed as the father. I gave you a part of myself to be that seed...instead, you take that part of me and implant it into that Irine woman without my knowlege or consent, all for what?!? So you could play husband and she could play mother?!? Then you ought to have at least let me inhabit her body so I could experience the joy of bearing MY child alongside her. You broke our contract and violated me, You abandoned our son for 27 years...and now when it's convenient to you you have the Gaul to worm back into his life and tear him apart, confusing him to the point of madness...and the best you can do is give an apology that has the same sincerity of a child who's hand was caught in a cookie Jar!"

It was ironic that Azazel was now female...as she was doing a very good job at sounding like a soon-to-be ex that had discovered her fiancé was having an affair. Was Azazel correct in her accusations, perhaps not, but it was certainly how she felt given the evidence she had seen.

"To answer your question Kurt, No she did not throw you over the waterfall, that was someone else. To her credit she did seem to have the intention to come back for you...though given everything that happened before and AFTER that, I'd argue that's moot." Azazel then looked back at Mystique. In the eyes of the one many called a demon, there was anger yes, but there was also deep hurt, and anguish. like every moment was a battle to fight back bitter tears. The words came out in an anguished whisper, a whisper loud enough for all three to hear.  "...and tell me...where is this Irine woman now huh? For as much as she claimed to "love you" and "wanted so badly to be a mother", she seemed quick to abandon the both of you to save her own skin. Lips curled into that of a sneer as Azazel could only shake their head. "Some love..."  The last two words were, the spoken part of an unspoken phrase. The unspoken part of that statement was an unrequested confession. *...I loved you...*

In truth Mystique's sudden sex change during that affair was not what bothered Azazel, it was for odd for sure, especially considering that at least as far as Azazel knew, Mystique self-identified with what mortal's often referred to as "The fairer sex," but that was ultimately the thing about shapeshifters on the level with the likes of Azazel and Rave Darkholm, they had no true from. Their true form was whatever they wished it to be. If Mystique desired to be the man of the relationship and identify as Father, that would have been fine. no what bothered  Azazel was the affair itself and the secrecy of it all. What Mystique had essentially done was violate Azazel in a very particular way. The closest similarity that mortals would understand was something so horrible that even demons would not utter the word for it in mixed company and something only the worst of the worst demons participated in. On top of all that, She had denied Azazel the right as the Mother to experience the birth of their child. In Azazel's mind it took a special kind of hatred or special kind of Apathy to do such a thing, and while Azazel was not sure which, it caused them to nearly break then and there. Azazel accepted that maybe he/she deserved it, given his/her nature. But Kurt did not deserve to suffer for it. 

[heroesdreamer]

Raven grew hopeful after Kurt questioned her, saying "Yes, let me take you home" but her yellow eyes glowed with anger when Kurt asked if she knew what his father had done. Standing up and reaching out with her other hand, she shook her head but only saiid "I am so sorry I wasn't around for you". She was also confused when he asked if she thought he was here to heal and replied "That's what I assumed, I'm sorry if I'm wrong."

She wanted so badly to hold him, so many years had been lost, but she did breathe a sigh of relief as Kurt mentioned the place he was at being a second start. "That's good, but you know you can always come home with me" she said, in a hopefully soothing tone. When he asked how he could trust that either of them would tell him the truth, she sighed and simply replied "I am telling you the truth, I would never have killed you!" Then before she could answer the next question, she heard a very familiar voice and hissed "Not here!", but she looked up to see Azazel, the mutant who claimed to be Kurt's father, already casting doubt on her story.

She seethed with anger as her former "lover" began to berate her, simply snapping back "You're not helping him", rolling her eyes as he changed form before berating her again for not taking the form she'd taken to conceived Kurt. She changed her form, with a quick "Happy now?" before getting into his face. "Don't you dare mock Destiny, she is my one true love" she snarled, a pang of sorrow striking her heart as she did not know where her partner had gone. "Yes, I do feel bad about deceiving you, but I so wanted a child of my own and this was the best way, that way he could be ours, truly. Would you have been his father otherwise?"


When he continued to berate her, that was fine, but then he dared to question where Irene had gone, and yes, Raven could hear the hurt in his voice but how dare he?! Wanting to strike him, she couldn't but she knew what she could do, so she turned to Kurt and asked "What did he do to you?" she asked, wanting to hear from his own lips an excuse to be mad at and strike out at him.

[Gummy]

Kurt sat there and listened and watched. Raven wanted to take him home, wanted to try and be a family. He nodded at her when she said he could come home to him. Then someone else entered the conversation. He couldn't help but let out a mildly annoyed sigh at seeing Azazel. He watched the pair like a spectator watched a tennis match. He also listened to each of them. His mood changed from confusion to anger and then it quelled and he laughed, it felt so strange but so good.. it was a release of all the pent up energy both good and bad... it didn't last long but it was enough to break the tension.

"Families.... You have to love families. No matter who is involved they are possibly some of the disjointed people in the world but there is always love that ties to an offspring. So let me get this right... Azazel, you love Raven and Raven you love Destiny who isn't around at the moment. I have a couple of questions for each of you and answer me truthfully, please? And you will listen to each other and speak civilly to each other."

He turned to Azazel next to him.

"Azazel? Father? Mother? Whichever... are there any other siblings before me? Why did you gift Raven the chance to have a child?"

Then he turned to Raven.

"Your question is a little more complicated. Were you with Azazel before or after you met Irene? Did you ever love Azazel? As for what he did to me... that can wait."


He was a counseller as well as a teacher at the school and if he could get through to teens then quarreling adults could be a little more challenging.

[John Kilroy]

Don't you dare mock Destiny, she is my one true love"

Mystique's words suddenly hit Azazel like a ton of bricks. Time was already frozen outside of their bubble and now it felt like time had all but froze inwardly as well. deep down She knew deep down that Raven was telling the truth. Calcabrina warned her of this very fact. Now there was no denying it. This was straight out of the horse's mouth. It didn't stop the tears. She  could not hold them in any longer, she began to weep as her mouth was pratically locked open, her eyes locked wide open. first there was a single tear, then two, then a steady stream and then as if to add salt into the wound, the secound part of Mystique's statement came out.

"Yes, I do feel bad about deceiving you, but I so wanted a child of my own and this was the best way, that way he could be ours, truly. Would you have been his father otherwise?"

There it was, Mystique attempt to show remorse, the the apology felt hollow to Azazel, especially as it seemed followed by justification because of her own wants. it was all about her. So was that all Azazel was to Mystique? Was she just a tool, a means to an end. It was the third part of her statment however they changed Azazel's emotions from heartbreaking to a seething rage.

Everything Mystique had done, the manipulation, the deception, the violation, and what, Azazel was supposed to be Thankful for what Mystique had done, like Raven had done some kind of favor? To act as if she wouldn't have been able to be the father without Mystique's help...

"You truly have no  understanding of just what I am....do you?"

before she could retort though either in word or action she heard ther sound of Nightcrawler's laughter. Part of her was wondering if he was mocking her pain, his only little bit of sweet revenge after the things she had done to him as of late. she couldn't blame him, not really, but then he imediatly softend and went into his normal peacekeeping mode. he was dealing with all of this truma too in his own way.

but then he asked her that question...one she dreaded to answer, but what difference did it make at this point? Azazels's already betrayed her true feelings in nonverbal ways. She might as well just tell the whole truth.


"I've helped convince many non mutant children who grew to be prominent men and women of history but they were not the fruit of my loins. Rather they were convinced through magic. You Kurt were my first true child. Since what I thought was the death of Raven I had many relations and sired many children hoping they'd fill the void that was empty...they could not..."



Azazel then looked to Raven. " I once told you never to confuse a physical passion for a condition of the heart, but in truth I was telling myself that more than I was telling you. I didn't choose you out of some randomness or need. I could have laid with anyone I so desired. Calcabrina would have gladly bore Nightcrawler had I wished her to. I chose you because...I truly fell in love with you. When I first laid eyes on you I felt a void in my heart fill that in my heart that had never been filled before. I could be... vulnerable around you. When I was with you I was not an archfiend I was me. Had you simply told me about Irine I'd have been disappointed that you and I couldin't be together but I would have understood. All I would have asked is that you let me inhabit Irene's body so that I could experience the feeling of baring and birthing my child with her. A last act of love and a way to remember me..."

azazel then turned her face. Her face was downcast and her voice a whisper. "...But you didn't. You lied to me...you manipulated me...you violated me...I'm left wondering how much of it was real and how much of it was all an act...and hearing you trying to justify and handwave it all away. I can't find it in my heart to forgive you and I don't think you realize the full consequences of what you've done...but I suppose that can wait."

She then looked to Kurt. "That is all I have to say for now." 
 

[heroesdreamer]

Raven listened to Azarel, not stepping back though she was fearful. Crossing her arms, she tried to ignore the tears but when she admitted to loving her, she did feel guilty. She was jolted out of her thoughts by Kurt laughing and she listened as he asked both of them questions before letting Azarel answer first. Pacing just a bit, she then turned to face both of them, but focused more of her attention around Kurt.

"I was with Irene for years before meeting Azzy" she started, trying to help him feel better by using a nickname. "I am sorry that I lied and manipulated, I just...for years I've been by myself, both before meeting Destiny and at times after and we wanted a child so badly. I lost her, I have no idea where she is now and that kills me inside!" Biting her lip, she looked at her ex and said "I did and do love you, you helped fill a hole in my life and helped me gain a son. I should have asked you for help, but I was afraid and thought it would be better to solve the problem myself." She then stayed quiet, waiting to hear what her son and former love would say.

[Gummy]

Kurt listened, he saw the pain on Azazel's face it was obvious. Raven was showing a different type of pain. Both had done wrong, both had tried to show love and one was overwhelmed by the pain of words. He closed his eyes, exhaustion sweeping over him. When he opened them a calmness swept over him.

"You both loved, you both hurt and both of you were feeling more complete by each other in different ways. You have both spoken the truth to each other possibly for the first time. I can not judge you and I will not be stuck in the middle. Wherever Destiny is or whatever she is doing she is not here now there is only the three of us. I will help if you are willing to listen to each other. The start of my life was brought about by love no matter how tangled between different people. Words can only hold so much weight but deeds say more. The fact that you both still hold love for each other despite what has passed is credit to your value to one another. I believe it is possible to love more than one person, I believe that the love Mother feel's towards Destiny and you Father is different. The fact she wanted your help, however garnered, shows she wanted to have me with you are a part of it. I could not do what I can do without either of you being within me. Now as for what happened to me and Mother after we were separated was down to Gott's plan and I trust in him. ...."

Kurt stiffened as the words didn't feel right in his head. Did he really believe and trust in him? That was why he was here, to ground himself and find the hope but it didn't feel right. He felt a slight anger at it all and that was to do with his father. What mattered at that moment was those two and he needed to push through the discomfort to get to the next bit. He breathed deeply trying to relax his jaw. He moved off of the bench to lean against the wall and indicated the seat for the pair of them.

"There is only one thing the two of you need to do and say but I can't tell you what it is for you both know in your hearts what needs to be done next."

[John Kilroy]

Azazel bit her lip and sighed. THAT...actually felt like a guine apology from Mysiquee and caused Azazel's anger to fade, oh make bo mistake she still held anger towards Destiny. That was never going to go away, but the anger for Mystique was indeed fading. However, that did not mean Mystique was forgiven...not entirely.

"I want to forgive you Mystique, I really do. But...at this point how can I trust you when I know you are still carrying the torch for another." Azazel let out a sigh. As she spoke this time she did not speak with venom in her voice. It was soft-spoken, almost timid even.

"Look, I...I was never in front of Destiny face to face, but thanks to the connection that we had, I was able to look through your memories and see things through your eyes, before I teleported here. I just don't understand. Does it not seem a bit odd that she only seemed to be around when she wanted something from you? and then disappeared and went off on her own again for who knows how long...It's always "one more mission" and "Just wait a little longer" always using sex or the promise of being able to be together with you to motivate you, in my line of work that's a picture-perfect example of "Carrot on the String" Manipulation. She bore a baby that you seeded and even after 28 years that baby doesn't even know who she is because she never bothered to reach out even after claiming she wanted a baby so badly...if you took the situation between you and destiny and put into a human couple...would you say that it was true love or would you say it's an unhealthy relationship...just...please think about that?"

Azazel then looked to Kurt and then back to Mystique. "...and what of Kurt, he has grown up to be a man. Look at him. He's hurting, every single time he manages to overcome himself and become the best version of himself, you and I come along and we rip cut him down to the nerve and once again he's left wondering who he is. as he says deeds say more than words, what do our deeds say? I tried to manipulate him, preparing him so that we could rule together, and I could shape him into what I thought would be the best version of himself, but that young man, sitting on here. Does that look like the best version of himself?"

Azazel looked to Kurt. "Kurt I...I know this will seem hollow and Illegitimate. But for what little dirt it is worth, I'm truly sorry for everything I've done to you. I am not worthy to be considered your mother or your father. A Mother a Father,  they are there for their children, they raise them, they lift them up, and guide them to be the best versions of themselves. I've not done any of those things. I don't know where my place in this relationship would have been but whether it's mother or father I've been neither, If you would allow me I DO want to be a parent to you, whether mother or father I care not. But...what happened to you was not Gott's plan, it was our failure...my failure...If  having a relationship with Gott is what brings out your full potintal and you wish to give him credit for things so be it, but give him glory that he made you the great man you are IN SPITE of what i've done, not because of what I've done. You don't OWE me anything, neither honor nor love...not unless you wish to grant it."

[heroesdreamer]

Raven listened as Kurt spoke, wincing as her son said that Destiny was not here now. That was still a sore spot for her, but she let him speak, nodding as he finished by saying both she and Azareal had things to say to each other. "You're right, it always amazes me how wise you are" she said with a smile, turning to Azael as he went first. She let him talk, again wincing at the mention of Destiny not being there, especially being questioned as to why. That hurt, but her ex did have a point, why did Destiny stay away from her?

She let him talk until he finished, and then she stepped up and reached out to take Azael's hand. "You have a point, as much as it hurts. I don't know why Destiny didn't come back for us" she said, looking at Kurt. "At the time I assumed she was thinking of a plan but either she is gone for good, or she's staying away for a reason." Looking at Kurt, when he said this was all God's plan, she clenched her fists, wanting so badly to say she didn't believe but again, if Kurt found hope in having faith, who was she to say otherwise?

Then Azaral kept talking and Raven remembered why she had fallen for him. Tears pricked her eyes as she walked forward. "I agree with everything" she said, sharing a look with her ex before looking back at her son. "I should've made sure you were with me, I'm so sorry!" she said, trying to hold back tears. "You don't have to leave here unless you want to, I can't promise that I have answers, and if this gives you comfort then you should stay. But I too want to try to make things right, with both of you, if you'll let me."