Post by Gordy on Jan 13, 2022 0:43:43 GMT -7
Entry #1: Sinister's accent makes him sound like a Victorian-era chimney sweep
I'm kinda sure Sinister will find these journals one day. Luckily, every page lists a unique insult. I want him to be angry and offended whenever he tries to invade my privacy again.
If I'm being honest, I don't hate Sinister. Despite everything, he and Kristoff are... well, not friends. But they're someone to talk to. I even started to like the elevator music Sinister keeps playing. I still flip Kristoff off when he's not looking, but after a while, I stop meaning it. He's not so bad.
I sort of feel bad for him, honestly. All that confidence in himself, and he still needs to surround himself with his own image. It's like he based half of his identity on his experiments, and half on people reacting to him. Wonder what he's like when he's all alone? Who is he when he's alone in the dark? Does he ever reflect on himself, or does he just bury himself in work and tell himself he's perfect? I don't know if he'd survive on his own.
Kristoff tries really hard to be successful. He's quick to say that any sort of kindness or mercy is weakness. He has all this power, but he feels the need to make a name for himself. It must be tough to live under Doctor Doom's shadow, and I think that's why he tries so hard. I kind of get it - the man who saved and raised him is also his biggest enemy, his inspiration and his bane. I can only blame him so much for the way he acts, when he probably never had a chance. Me and Ziggy might be the closest he has to friends.
It turns out Magneto is a real person. I thought he was a government-hired actor, running false flag operations to make people turn on mutants. But no, he's really just like that.
I actually met Xavier once before, when my fire powers manifested. He kind of helped me shut them down while I went to space. Good intentions can only get you so far, and I think he's finally realizing that. There are few things more soul-crushing than seeing an idealist realize they were wrong.
I saw Emma Frost once too, I think. At the mansion. I think she'd just come back from Marine Land. We didn't talk or anything and I don't think she noticed me. She's objectively the most beautiful woman in the world, and even I can't help but like her. Still, I hope she stays far away from me.
There's another mutant on Genosha, Razor. And I've observed him with my spies. I don't know a lot about him personally, but I know for sure that he's angry. You can feel the anxiety behind his words, even when he's trying to be calm. He has a lot of regret in his life, and it's only a matter of time before it all catches up to him. He's going to crash and burn one day, unless someone reaches out to him. That person probably won't be me, though.
Ziggy's a very broken person. She tries to hard, for her and especially for other people. But does that effort matter when you have nothing to show for it? Everybody keeps taking things away from her, and one day she's going to realize she has nothing left. She can only cry so much before those dry up. I wonder what will happen then?
Step wonders about the weird creature Sinister keeps locked up. I never asked Sinister about it because I'm sure the answer won't be pleasant.
I played a video game once. The main character, they were dying. And there's something they said that thought about. 'I just want the world to know I was here. That I mattered.' And you know what? Such a human, relatable feeling, a desperate and reasonable want. I couldn't relate to it. I'd be satisfied with having so much less.
I'm all I have and I still haven't learned to like myself. But I don't need to like myself to have purpose. Me and Step were talking about it, and we're going to be heroes again one day. I think I'm pretty happy with that. It's going to be hard, but it will probably be worth it.
Next time, I might talk about my siblings.
I'm kinda sure Sinister will find these journals one day. Luckily, every page lists a unique insult. I want him to be angry and offended whenever he tries to invade my privacy again.
If I'm being honest, I don't hate Sinister. Despite everything, he and Kristoff are... well, not friends. But they're someone to talk to. I even started to like the elevator music Sinister keeps playing. I still flip Kristoff off when he's not looking, but after a while, I stop meaning it. He's not so bad.
I sort of feel bad for him, honestly. All that confidence in himself, and he still needs to surround himself with his own image. It's like he based half of his identity on his experiments, and half on people reacting to him. Wonder what he's like when he's all alone? Who is he when he's alone in the dark? Does he ever reflect on himself, or does he just bury himself in work and tell himself he's perfect? I don't know if he'd survive on his own.
Kristoff tries really hard to be successful. He's quick to say that any sort of kindness or mercy is weakness. He has all this power, but he feels the need to make a name for himself. It must be tough to live under Doctor Doom's shadow, and I think that's why he tries so hard. I kind of get it - the man who saved and raised him is also his biggest enemy, his inspiration and his bane. I can only blame him so much for the way he acts, when he probably never had a chance. Me and Ziggy might be the closest he has to friends.
It turns out Magneto is a real person. I thought he was a government-hired actor, running false flag operations to make people turn on mutants. But no, he's really just like that.
I actually met Xavier once before, when my fire powers manifested. He kind of helped me shut them down while I went to space. Good intentions can only get you so far, and I think he's finally realizing that. There are few things more soul-crushing than seeing an idealist realize they were wrong.
I saw Emma Frost once too, I think. At the mansion. I think she'd just come back from Marine Land. We didn't talk or anything and I don't think she noticed me. She's objectively the most beautiful woman in the world, and even I can't help but like her. Still, I hope she stays far away from me.
There's another mutant on Genosha, Razor. And I've observed him with my spies. I don't know a lot about him personally, but I know for sure that he's angry. You can feel the anxiety behind his words, even when he's trying to be calm. He has a lot of regret in his life, and it's only a matter of time before it all catches up to him. He's going to crash and burn one day, unless someone reaches out to him. That person probably won't be me, though.
Ziggy's a very broken person. She tries to hard, for her and especially for other people. But does that effort matter when you have nothing to show for it? Everybody keeps taking things away from her, and one day she's going to realize she has nothing left. She can only cry so much before those dry up. I wonder what will happen then?
Step wonders about the weird creature Sinister keeps locked up. I never asked Sinister about it because I'm sure the answer won't be pleasant.
I played a video game once. The main character, they were dying. And there's something they said that thought about. 'I just want the world to know I was here. That I mattered.' And you know what? Such a human, relatable feeling, a desperate and reasonable want. I couldn't relate to it. I'd be satisfied with having so much less.
I'm all I have and I still haven't learned to like myself. But I don't need to like myself to have purpose. Me and Step were talking about it, and we're going to be heroes again one day. I think I'm pretty happy with that. It's going to be hard, but it will probably be worth it.
Next time, I might talk about my siblings.